Checked out Google Books today. They have a host of free books one can read either through a mobile app or on a laptop/desktop. I'd been reading references to "The Importance of Being Ernest" in the current book I'm reading, so when I chanced upon the play script I decided to check it out. I can't believe I've never read a complete Oscar Wilde play before. It was really interesting, and funny. I really must find some more works by Wilde to add to my reading list.

Epiphany

I counted my blessings today; and realised that I am richer than I ever thought I could be.
I also realised that just because something doesn't come to you in the form you had envisioned, doesn't mean that the form in which it does come to you, isn't just as good or perhaps even better.

Questions....

I sometimes resort to using lyrics of songs when I am unable to find enough words to express feelings. The last few days, snatches of this song have been running through my mind:
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here.....

As I grow older (not sure about wiser) I am increasingly bothered by this question. What difference have I made? What is my contribution to life, to this world, to people close to me? It is said that there is a purpose to everything that happens. So then, what is the purpose of my life?

Initially these questions nagged but I would just ignore them, shove it all to the back of the mind and get on with the day to day nitty gritties of living. But it doesn't seem possible or even right any more. I need to answer them. If I am unable to, then I need to look and think till I can find the answers. I need to find my purpose.

Thought for the day

Sometimes the very things you want are also the things you fear the most.

Restless wandering, looking around but not seeing anything. Questions in my head as I try to sleep. Vague fears of what might or might not happen. Disquiet. A sense of loss. A strong urge to go back into a shell and never ever have to come out again.....

Did it again, didn't I? Got caught up in the business of life and forgot to - or just neglected to - take out time for this blog. Have not posted anything at all in this new year so far. I've been so busy travelling for work, and working, and doing all kinds of other random stuff, that the smaller but equally important stuff seems to have slipped between the cracks....

Coming soon. Change.